Worship

When I was around 8 years old I was diagnosed with vocal cord nodule. I had to go to speech therapy and carry around a little clicker. Every time I would scream, yell, whisper or sing, I would push down on the clicker so my parents and the doctor could see how I was using my voice. Sometimes my voice would get so hoarse, I was excused from talking in class which I liked! What I didn’t like was getting a scope down my throat to determine how the bumps were doing. One time there were seven nurses holding me down, the doctor was so mad! He told my dad to just take me home and not come back unless I was going to corporate!

So when I was nine my parents made me quit the children’s church choir. This was very hard on me and I remember so clearly like it was yesterday my last Sunday signing.  As I was singing, it was like someone’s voice was coming out of me from the way it felt and sounded. I remember feeling free… happy and at peace. When the service was over, the pastor and many people I didn’t even know told me I sounded like an angel.

Still today I struggle with my voice, it easily get sore especially if I’m talking too much. I can’t sing certain notes and my voice gets tired quickly from singing but I love to sing! I love to worship Yahweh!

When I go before Him, I can get completely lost in His presence. It doesn’t matter if I’m in a room of hundreds of people, it feels like it’s just me and Him. Time has no beginning and no end. I’m like a small child wanting my daddy to know just how much I love Him.

Before I enter into worship and praise, I do a spiritual evaluation… my desire is that I’m washed clean so that I can give my whole heart to Him. Sometimes I’m broken… but most times I’m in awe of the Father’s majesty, His kindness, compassion and love He has for His children.

Worship is not about how it makes us feel, it’s about honoring our King. But because we can humble ourselves before Him and pour out our love, He allows us to experience an intimacy with Him that is unbelievably incredibly.

Seek Him and you will find Him, the more you find Him, the more you’ll love Him.

Yet a time is coming and now has come when the true worshippers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in the Truth, for they are the kind of worshippers the Father seeks. Yahweh is Spirit, and His worshippers must worship in the Spirit and in Truth. John 4:23-24.